I loved going fast and doing more.
I'm Laura Swain, a former teacher turned homeschool mom of four.
I'm also a former perfectionist, people pleaser, and workaholic.
I used to believe that the more I did, the more I mattered. This meant I packed my family's schedule and never stopped running. Sometimes I'd look around and feel guilty about how fast time was going and how quickly my kids were growing up. But I didn't think I could do anything about it...
My life came to a screeching halt when God led me into what I call my "couch season." I spent about three years on the couch with little kids and unexpected physical limitations.
I felt like a complete failure because I couldn't do any of the homeschool stuff I had envisioned. I was utterly depleted.
I rocked my twin infants in the middle of the night, weeping in silent prayer: God, I know you see me. I know you're able. Why won't you give me what I need?
I couldn't see it at the time, but God was giving me exactly what I needed. It wasn't more sleep, more energy, or more obedient kids.
God taught me to be satisfied in Him, not my achievements. He taught me to trust His leading and plan, not my own. He opened my eyes to miraculous beauty that had always been there...but was invisible to me when I was moving so fast.
And the only way I learned these things was because I had slowed down.
That slowness made me humble, grateful, and more present with my kids. I stopped scrolling social media, wishing I had someone else's homeschool life. Instead, I marveled at the beauty of my real, actual, right-now life.
When I was on that couch, I learned something awesome about my kids, too:
They are born learners.
This changed my homeschool perspective forever...
And it can change yours, too.